What I want to know is why nobody ever told me that I was Legally blind without my contacts in...!
It makes me angry I have been like this for most of my life and no one told me.. They have all just said yes she can't see... mutter mutter grumble....
I have thought it for sometime but just sat down and made my husband look it up... and yes I am blind. I always used to joke about it... But I just need to vent about it... It seems that all doctors do this to me... They never tell me exactly what is wrong with me and I don't know why... It seems that they know what is wrong but they just don't want to tell me that this is what is wrong.. They will only tell me how to fix it... like stop drinking caffiene, stop eating so many mints, and stop eating spicy foods, then you will get better. And so on...
They just make me so angry. I just want to know straight out what my problems are so that I can fix them... Goodness. I hate having to find out for myself when others can just tell me. Grrrrrrrrrr
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Friday, July 22, 2005
The vet.....
On monday of this week I was sent to take the cat and one of our dogs to the vet... much to my dismay and to the dismay of my two loving animals, they wouldn't let us in to see the vet. They just sent us away. Even though I know that they take walk ins and I was willing to sit and wait until the vet actually showed up. The lady at the desk refused to even entertain the thought.
So I set up an appointment for this afternoon. And had to round up the dog and the cat once again to get them to the vets after work. So get done with work at 3:30 and have to have the pets to the vet at 4:15...
Get there safely... Cat is freaking out because she get stressed out just leaving the front door. Much less getting put into a box and taken into the car then to that "bad place where they hurt her and scare her..." She gets seen first. She is very healthy, she weighs good and so on, they give her some shots and she is done... Feed her hairball food see if that takes care of her problem... Ok
Now onto the Ging, He says she has no masses, good, hmmmm she has a bit more weight on her than she should but it isn't unhealthy. wow she is going to be 10 yrs old this october. Give her the shots she needs. Now lets weigh her.... ohhh she walks right onto the scale no problems and she weighs in at 83.5 lbs... good girl! She has lost some weight since last time. Now lets give her some pills to see if it will help her get better. ewww she won't eat those, yucky.
Now to pay the bill and get these animals home.
Home safe and cat is out of the box and no where to be seen.
What a day.... And my weekend won't slow down a bit... oye!
So I set up an appointment for this afternoon. And had to round up the dog and the cat once again to get them to the vets after work. So get done with work at 3:30 and have to have the pets to the vet at 4:15...
Get there safely... Cat is freaking out because she get stressed out just leaving the front door. Much less getting put into a box and taken into the car then to that "bad place where they hurt her and scare her..." She gets seen first. She is very healthy, she weighs good and so on, they give her some shots and she is done... Feed her hairball food see if that takes care of her problem... Ok
Now onto the Ging, He says she has no masses, good, hmmmm she has a bit more weight on her than she should but it isn't unhealthy. wow she is going to be 10 yrs old this october. Give her the shots she needs. Now lets weigh her.... ohhh she walks right onto the scale no problems and she weighs in at 83.5 lbs... good girl! She has lost some weight since last time. Now lets give her some pills to see if it will help her get better. ewww she won't eat those, yucky.
Now to pay the bill and get these animals home.
Home safe and cat is out of the box and no where to be seen.
What a day.... And my weekend won't slow down a bit... oye!
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
movies
I like to watch movies..
yesterday I sat down and watched 3 movies in a row.
I first watched Gladiator, for the first time. It is a good movie, with quite the story. wow. But not quite what I needed right then. Way too much blood. So I needed to see some sort of comedy.
Off to the library. Next show to watch, my husbands choice... Harold and Maude. Hmmmm an interesting show with some very funny parts and yet it ends very very sad, with kind of a happy twist. Ok get mad at Stu, now on to the third and final movie of the evening...
Barefoot in the Park... a lovely movie with Robert Redford and Jane Fonda. I helped perform in the play version of this movie my senior year in high school (I was the sound coordinator). And I had never seen the movie before and thought that it may be a fun show to watch. And as I had suspected it was done perfectly. I loved the way Jane Fonda played her role. And I just loved the show.
But still I found that I was depressed after watching each of these movies. Goodness what am I to do. I go to bed, ponder these things and fall asleep. I can't remeber the dreams that came from it. Although I am sure that they were pretty weird.
yesterday I sat down and watched 3 movies in a row.
I first watched Gladiator, for the first time. It is a good movie, with quite the story. wow. But not quite what I needed right then. Way too much blood. So I needed to see some sort of comedy.
Off to the library. Next show to watch, my husbands choice... Harold and Maude. Hmmmm an interesting show with some very funny parts and yet it ends very very sad, with kind of a happy twist. Ok get mad at Stu, now on to the third and final movie of the evening...
Barefoot in the Park... a lovely movie with Robert Redford and Jane Fonda. I helped perform in the play version of this movie my senior year in high school (I was the sound coordinator). And I had never seen the movie before and thought that it may be a fun show to watch. And as I had suspected it was done perfectly. I loved the way Jane Fonda played her role. And I just loved the show.
But still I found that I was depressed after watching each of these movies. Goodness what am I to do. I go to bed, ponder these things and fall asleep. I can't remeber the dreams that came from it. Although I am sure that they were pretty weird.
Thursday, July 14, 2005
caffiene
hmmmm I always forget....
Caffiene affects me more now that I don't drink it that often... I only drink it when I am really really tired and I have to drive or work.... machinery(ish). Anyways..... So I am just going to talk about nothing right now. I love my husband. He is a big help when it comes to computer stuffs.
I love my family and want to thank them for all of their support. I know I can be a little crazy and they don't all understand me at times. But hey can't everyone be like that. But seriously thanx for chatting with me mom. And dad I don't talk to just you all that often but I love you Daddio. You don't know how much it means to me to spend time with just you. I like driving you home I get some one on one time with you. Jared your testimony is amazing to me and I love to see how it is growing. And I love to see how you and your wife are getting along thru everything and I can't wait to see how your family gets along. I know that you are a kind and loving husband and father. And I know that your wife is a wonderful caring mother and wife. Thanx for the great role model for my own family. I look up to you guys and I am sooo jealous of the life you have. Mom I am thankful for everything you have taught me and for all that you continue to teach me. And thanx also for listening to me. I love talking to you. Thank you and I love you all.
Stu, I love you lots and I want to say thanx to you for loving me too. I know you are a wonderful guy and I don't know how to say what I feel soooo.... hugs and kisses to my sweetheart.
Sorry to everyone who didn't want to really read that I just thought I would let everyone know how I feel..... Have a great night and wish me luck.... I am going to try and sleep even though I have lots of energy from the caffiene right now.
Caffiene affects me more now that I don't drink it that often... I only drink it when I am really really tired and I have to drive or work.... machinery(ish). Anyways..... So I am just going to talk about nothing right now. I love my husband. He is a big help when it comes to computer stuffs.
I love my family and want to thank them for all of their support. I know I can be a little crazy and they don't all understand me at times. But hey can't everyone be like that. But seriously thanx for chatting with me mom. And dad I don't talk to just you all that often but I love you Daddio. You don't know how much it means to me to spend time with just you. I like driving you home I get some one on one time with you. Jared your testimony is amazing to me and I love to see how it is growing. And I love to see how you and your wife are getting along thru everything and I can't wait to see how your family gets along. I know that you are a kind and loving husband and father. And I know that your wife is a wonderful caring mother and wife. Thanx for the great role model for my own family. I look up to you guys and I am sooo jealous of the life you have. Mom I am thankful for everything you have taught me and for all that you continue to teach me. And thanx also for listening to me. I love talking to you. Thank you and I love you all.
Stu, I love you lots and I want to say thanx to you for loving me too. I know you are a wonderful guy and I don't know how to say what I feel soooo.... hugs and kisses to my sweetheart.
Sorry to everyone who didn't want to really read that I just thought I would let everyone know how I feel..... Have a great night and wish me luck.... I am going to try and sleep even though I have lots of energy from the caffiene right now.
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
Saxamaphone
Well I was able to play in a band yesterday. I was soooo nervous, I didn't know if I could play, if they would be forgiving, or anything of what to expect. But I calmed myself down on the drive out to my mom's town by listening to my favorite band, Sawyer Brown. I like their older stuff because they have saxophones in their band. Plus it is just great fun. And I love to sing along. So that helped me feel better. And thank heavens I practiced a bit before I went. Otherwise my chops would have not lasted nearly as long as they did.
Anyhow... we played for just about 3 hours... goodness... and since we had no drummer we were dragging the songs down alot... And that bugged some of the other players who were band directors... but tough they were not in charge and were not directing us. So what ever. but they played most of the songs kinda slow... I was worried that they would play them a bit faster but I guess that just came from the marching band and pep band experience up at college where we played everything superfast.
But I was able to keep up with the old people who had been playing for years... or decades or something. And so when we finished I was exausted... yet filled with tons of energy still... So I went home to calm down a bit and ended up going for a long walk with my mom. Which I haven't done in forever.
After the walk I headed home to my husband. When I got there I just crashed on my wonderfully comfortable bed (but that's another story). And had a few weird dreams... But after a day at work I have forgotten them... So I am not exactly sure what they were about or anything... So I won't even go there.
Goodnight world.
Anyhow... we played for just about 3 hours... goodness... and since we had no drummer we were dragging the songs down alot... And that bugged some of the other players who were band directors... but tough they were not in charge and were not directing us. So what ever. but they played most of the songs kinda slow... I was worried that they would play them a bit faster but I guess that just came from the marching band and pep band experience up at college where we played everything superfast.
But I was able to keep up with the old people who had been playing for years... or decades or something. And so when we finished I was exausted... yet filled with tons of energy still... So I went home to calm down a bit and ended up going for a long walk with my mom. Which I haven't done in forever.
After the walk I headed home to my husband. When I got there I just crashed on my wonderfully comfortable bed (but that's another story). And had a few weird dreams... But after a day at work I have forgotten them... So I am not exactly sure what they were about or anything... So I won't even go there.
Goodnight world.
Friday, July 08, 2005
Candy
My family is in the business of making candy. Well at least my grandpa is. And I love to sell it for him. As he is away on vacation he has had need of other family members to keep the store open for him. And since my mom doesn't work he begged her to do it.
Today my mom couldn't make it up to the store, so I went. I really do enjoy being up there. Maybe more so when other people or family members are up there. It was quite lonely up there today. So in order to keep my spirits up I turned on some music that I like to sing along with. And played a bit loud but it got people to come down to our side of the mall if only to see where the noise was coming from. But most people enjoyed it or they didn't say anything to me about singing soooo... oh well.
But I was there for about 2 and a half hours... It started out pretty promising with about 4 or 5 sales in a row. Though they were only 1-3 dollar sales. It was better than nothing. But as the hours progressed I only ever did make those 1 dollar or 3 dollar sales and after about 4pm no one wanted to buy it they all just wanted to taste. So I got discouraged and decided to close up the store... Oh well I still like to go up there and try to sell the yummy delicious fudge of my family.
Today my mom couldn't make it up to the store, so I went. I really do enjoy being up there. Maybe more so when other people or family members are up there. It was quite lonely up there today. So in order to keep my spirits up I turned on some music that I like to sing along with. And played a bit loud but it got people to come down to our side of the mall if only to see where the noise was coming from. But most people enjoyed it or they didn't say anything to me about singing soooo... oh well.
But I was there for about 2 and a half hours... It started out pretty promising with about 4 or 5 sales in a row. Though they were only 1-3 dollar sales. It was better than nothing. But as the hours progressed I only ever did make those 1 dollar or 3 dollar sales and after about 4pm no one wanted to buy it they all just wanted to taste. So I got discouraged and decided to close up the store... Oh well I still like to go up there and try to sell the yummy delicious fudge of my family.
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
Oye oye oye
goodness gracious....
I forget how much it takes to play the saxophone....
After not playing for about 6 months... and then picking it up again.... wow!
How tired you get after just a half hour. But then you remember how you feel after playing and the effects of playing just get addicting.
I can breathe a bit better. And oxygen in your lungs can be quite invigorating and even though I am tired I feel like dancing. Or running or just having fun.
Thanx mom for making me get that wonderful thing out to practice. I will have to do that some more though if I want to play in a band again.
I forget how much it takes to play the saxophone....
After not playing for about 6 months... and then picking it up again.... wow!
How tired you get after just a half hour. But then you remember how you feel after playing and the effects of playing just get addicting.
I can breathe a bit better. And oxygen in your lungs can be quite invigorating and even though I am tired I feel like dancing. Or running or just having fun.
Thanx mom for making me get that wonderful thing out to practice. I will have to do that some more though if I want to play in a band again.
I like to cook
I don't cook very often... as I don't have my own kitchen. But I love to cook.
It doesn't matter what... But my favorite thing to cook would have to be dessert. But honestly as long as I can make something that other people will like to eat. I like to cook it.
Some of my Grandmothers have figured this out. I have one who likes to have family bring over food every once in a while when we get together. And she always askes me to bring a dessert... whether it be cookies or whatever. And I love to do it. Another Grandma is always wanting me to come over and bake with her. She lives across the street so this isn't too difficult. However I can rarely find the time. But this last sunday I did find the time. And I helped her make some cheesecake... we cheat a little we do use the boxed recipes on some things. Such as cheesecake and regualr cakes. But people still love to eat these foods... So why not it is a bit easier.
But as I have gotten older I have found that I like to cook things even without boxed recipes. And I have gathered more and more wonderful recipes from people. I still haven't made them all yet. But I don't have my own kitchen sooo it is a little difficult to make these recipes, especially when then fam (in-laws) don't like to try new things to often.
Anyways Cooking is fun.
It doesn't matter what... But my favorite thing to cook would have to be dessert. But honestly as long as I can make something that other people will like to eat. I like to cook it.
Some of my Grandmothers have figured this out. I have one who likes to have family bring over food every once in a while when we get together. And she always askes me to bring a dessert... whether it be cookies or whatever. And I love to do it. Another Grandma is always wanting me to come over and bake with her. She lives across the street so this isn't too difficult. However I can rarely find the time. But this last sunday I did find the time. And I helped her make some cheesecake... we cheat a little we do use the boxed recipes on some things. Such as cheesecake and regualr cakes. But people still love to eat these foods... So why not it is a bit easier.
But as I have gotten older I have found that I like to cook things even without boxed recipes. And I have gathered more and more wonderful recipes from people. I still haven't made them all yet. But I don't have my own kitchen sooo it is a little difficult to make these recipes, especially when then fam (in-laws) don't like to try new things to often.
Anyways Cooking is fun.
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